I don’t know why, but recently I have been staying away from my computer as much as possible. Since my last post I have been both up and down, but I’ve been somewhat isolating myself from the big bad world of the internet. Too much stuff. Too much information. My brain and body have enough to cope with sans the deluge of online crap.
I have been trying to be a bit social, a bit productive, a bit ‘normal’. But the last couple of days have been absolutely awful. I’m not entirely sure what is happening to my body right now, but I can’t tell if I am hot or cold, I’m completely tingly, my chronic fatigue is the worst it has ever been, and my joints are starting to ache like hell again. I barely had the energy to wash my face this evening.
This is more of a reminder to myself to post a proper, beneficial for other people to read blog post tomorrow. I have tried writing in a diary, I have tried writing on here, but I just feel like my brain is shutting down and I have no way of properly articulating how I feel. Granted, I’m probably just emotionally stunted, but my body and my brain just feel like they’re shutting down on me right now. Oh the joys.
Quick side note: It is incredibly frustrating googling POTS symptoms to constantly have to weed my way through (ha – unintentional joke) marijuana related questions.